Today is my mom's birthday.
Time is my friend.
Time has dulled the heartache ... or I am just better at hiding it.
I didn't wake up with that "lump in my throat" or "pit in my stomach" feeling. Instead I went to the gym (could barely walk after, thank you Jenn) and ran errands.
I was okay ... except for the time in Ikea, while talking to Ashley that I burst into tears. Or the moment when I listened to my messages and heard Susan Boyer, one of my mom's good friends, remind me that "she thinks of her everyday and still misses her". Yep... other then that, I was okay. But I thought of her ALL DAY!!!!!
In my mom's honor, I crawled into a HOT Bath (one of my mom's favorites), at 4:00 pm and put in extra bubble bath. Then, I gathered my sweet little family to celebrate my mom on her birthday. We ate Spaghetti with red sauce for dinner (one of her favorites).
We sang Happy Birthday and made a wish as we blew out the candles on heavily frosted cupcakes/cookies (another one of her favorites).
We each wrote her a birthday card and attached it to a balloon to "send it to heaven"
(she would not say this was her favorite).
And watched our messages float away.
I asked my kids what they remember about Grandma Kathy. They still remember a lot and I am trying to remind them of the things she loved. I try so hard to be like my mom. I wish I was more like her. She really was THE BEST!!!
Happy Birthday Mom!!!
(Next year... we are having a BIG party-all of us!)