May 7, 2011

I Got to Call Her "Mom"

A few weeks ago, I decided that this Mother's Day I wasn't going to dwell on the fact that I didn't have a mom here to celebrate on Mother's Day. Rather then feel sad, I would enjoy the day and be happy. Having set this goal, I have unexpectedly spent the last three days ridding myself of many tears. I am embarrassed to say that I have caught a few friends off-guard with my uncontrollable blubbering. My poor husband has had to patiently wait for me to finish my bawl session, reapply make-up, and dab a swollen and red face, so that we can carry on about our day. But I intend to keep my goal.

Tomorrow, I will wake up happy. I will allow my sweet kids to pamper me with their darling school-made gifts. I will let Aaron figure out dinner. I will smile. And I will enjoy the day, knowing how blessed I am to have three little people call me "Mom." Because I know that being a mom is such a great blessing that not everyone gets to enjoy.

But, it felt strange not to honor my mom on my blog. This blog is my journal. Sometimes it is an "over-share" and sometimes it is a "bragging zone". But it is a place to jot down my feelings, desires, frustrations, and memories. So... on this Mother's Day eve, I want to wish my mom a Happy Mother's Day.
I wish she was still here so I COULD celebrate her. She was my best friend and the greatest example of what a MOTHER really is. Tonight I miss her. Tonight I am sad. But my heart is filled with gratitude. I know how lucky I am. I know how blessed I was. Because for 35 years, I got to call her "Mom".

Happy Mother's Day, Mom!!


Debbie said...

Happy Mother's Day, Dawn. I, too wish your mom was here.
You children are the testament to her good mothering! I loved the song.

amanda said...

It was a good Mother's Day!! We were lucky to have such a great example of what a mother should be. You are following her example and someday your kids will call you blessed:)

Shauna said...

I thought of you the other day and was hoping you and your brothers and sisters were ok. It must be a hard day for you all. Your mom was a great mom and friend.

Alyssa said...

Great post. Loved the video. I want to hear about how your mother's day went. Hope the kids and Aaron spoiled you all day. And P.S., I look forward to any post about your mom. She was an amazing woman and I love hearing you talk about her.

amanda said...